For the past 7 1/2 months of being a graduate I have been running full force. I have been frantically applying to every job that pops up. I have been overly active in my own personal endeavor towards my dream end goal. I never thought that being persistent and dedicated to finding a job a life plan would be a bad thing. I really believed that the only way to get somewhere was to never give up and to keep pressing onward towards the final destination.
What I foolishly forgot was, that in every road trip you have to make pit stops. At some point you are going to have to make a bathroom break, grab a quick burger, and most importantly refuel. Stopping and being still for a moment is not a bad thing, but a very necessary thing to do for the trek to be the best it can be. Making a pit stop does not mean you are giving up or being lazy, it just means you are allowing yourself to regroup before the next long haul. I have not given myself a break emotionally, physically, or spiritually. I have been pressing on so hard and pushing my little engine too far.
To those who are reading this, you may be thinking to yourself "Gee, that Ivette girl is really smart for figuring that out". While I appreciate the compliment to my intellectual ability, I had absolutely nothing to do with this. It is all because of God that I have realized that resting, and being patient in the pauses in life are a good thing. He has been showing himself to me in my quiet time the last few weeks that I have absolutely no idea where I am going. He is 100% my co-pilot, the one reading the maps, telling me when to turn and when to stop. Unfortunately, I have been ignoring his recommendation to actually stop, refuel, and wait.
So, instead of worrying about the fact that I still do not have a "big girl job" and desperately searching for the first career that will launch me to my dream, I am going to stand still. I am going to allow HIM to direct me when He feels like I am ready. No more driving over the speed limit to get to my destination on my time, no more thinking that I have the map figured out, and definitely no more running on an empty tank. Today, I am taking a much needed potty break on my long and far-from-over journey.
